Yesterday we had our first meeting for the Charlottesville "chapter" of Ask a Catholic a Question.
So with no materials, a presentation mostly plagiarized from Internet sites, little idea of how I was going to teach this stuff, and no training myself I went to mass on Monday evening feeling very depressed. Seriously, what makes me think I can lead this group doing something that I'm not even very good at? Why me - why do I feel so compelled to do this?
So, I get to mass and realize that it's the solemnity of St's Peter and Paul and think to myself, "ack, I prayed the wrong morning prayer!" Then God poured out the most amazing, unexpected and overwhelming grace upon me.
"God doesn't call the equipped; He equips the called," so started father's homily. He went on to tell us about the long list of faults that both these saints had, and how they "bumbled and stumbled their way into salvation." These men were not equipped to send God's message to the world, God worked through them and equipped them when they needed it, and through their preaching the church grew exponentially.
We had pitifully few people show up for the meeting, but all were excited and want to see this succeed. Also, as one guy mentioned later, if this succeeds with such humble beginnings it must be the work of the Spirit.
I felt like God was telling me over and over, "Dude, you're not the one who's going to be doing this! It's not about you!" I can't begin to explain how relieved I am. The success of this venture isn't depended on my "greatness," which is sorely lacking, but on the greatness and power of God!